Inspiration struck last night when I was staring at my "Christmas Project" last year. I wrote a poem about it, just to capture the essence of the message I want to portray. (After quite a while, I finally was able to extract some creative juice from my brain. Haha.)
A Christmas Poem
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 2:04 PM Labels: art, Christmas, poems Sunday, December 6, 2009It's almost December.
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 9:20 PM Labels: Joshua, Owl City, school Saturday, November 28, 2009Here I am once again stuck in limbo between bumming and doing schoolwork, and it is so frustrating. Half of your being wants to do something that you can say you have accomplished, while the other half wants to lounge around and do nothing. So once again, in an effort to start a momentum of doing schoolwork, here I am. Blogging. Again. After a long long time.
Random Poem + School + Musings
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 3:05 PM Labels: movies, musings, poems, school Saturday, October 10, 2009My Artsy Self Needs Some Expressing
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 9:45 PM Labels: Caedmon's Call, poems Thursday, July 9, 2009This is what I get for taking up Engineering as a college course - the right side of my brain gets dried up. So, here goes an on-the-spot poem about... we are to find out. Hihi.
*****
The Crowd
Walk.
Stop.
Look around.
Many people are passing by.
Faces unknown,
those who you will never see again.
In their world, you are nothing.
In your world, they are nothing.
Yet, each one of you, I know.
I know full well.
You are all special in my eyes,
and I yearn for that day
you will see just how important your life is.
No matter how the world sees you -
even if you are just a tiny speck living among multitudes -
Always remember -
You are known and loved -
You are loved and known.
*****
Okay... somehow, the poem turned out like that. Finally, that concept stuck in my head for quite a long time made its way out... even if it turned out different than what I thought it should be.
I don't get it why my poems always revolve around God. They just do. It's probably the overflow of my soul. Anyway...
It's midterms week, and I cannot feel it. Oh well. Nothing much happening... At least I got to see Daryl Marasigan (a balikbayan friend) tomorrow. Weeee.
P.S. At last two lines: They were taken from "Bombay Rain" by Caedmon's Call. Music is mysteriously finds its way into my brain. Hehe.
The Day that was not My Day
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 12:42 PM Labels: 1 Thessalonians, Bible, CCC, Proverbs, Romans, school Saturday, June 27, 2009After a few minutes of waiting for the train to arrive, the LRT temporarily suspended its operation at about 7:30 AM, and I started to panic. There was no way I'm going to ride the jeepney because the road was flooded with people. So, I called my mother and asked her to take me to La Salle via our car, for the first time ever.
On my way to school, I was really tired because of wondering how I will take my quizzes (especially since there was that "No quiz, you get the lowest grade of all your quizzes as your quiz grade." policy). My hands and feet were clammy, my heart was being squeezed and my stomach has butterflies in it.
When I finally stepped foot in school, I wanted to cry because I did not know how to fix this mess... But then again, I remembered to "Give thanks to the Lord in all circumstances for it is God's will for you, in Christ Jesus (1 Thessalonians 5:18)" because "...God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28)." IT WAS CRAZY TO THANK GOD BECAUSE I WAS IN SUCH A DILEMMA, BUT I DID IT, ANYWAY... Out of that thing called faith.
I ended up showing up to my Thermodynamics teacher so that I can plead on taking my quiz. Thankfully, he did, but on one condition - I needed to take the quiz by 9:40. I went to look for my Physiology teacher, but I can't find him. I decided to take things moment by moment and took my Thermodynamics quiz. After that, I finally found my Physiology teacher and he talked to us (Nico Ng and I, because we were in the same situation) about our "problem." After giving us suspense on whether he decided to give us a quiz or not, he concluded that "We all have our fair share of bad days" and "S*** happens," and that we were allowed to take the quiz, but on a shorter time span.
I CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I WAS. No wonder God has a reason for us to thank Him even in REALLY CRAZY situations.
The day went by smoothly after that, and though it was really NOT MY DAY (It was proven during my 2:40 PM Digital Electronics subject, when I dropped my file case and it was heard througout the classroom... and my teacher, who also happened to be the one teaching my Physiology subject, declared, "Kamae, it is really not your day." Haha.), I must say it was GOD'S DAY of giving me first-hand, short-term experience of "In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps (Proverbs 16:9)."
P.S. Remember how God lets people experience things so that they can preach from the heart? That happened to me that day as I was assigned to give a nugget talk during Archer's Call (CCC's weekly prayer time and fellowship) about having a Revolutionary Walk (one of the points is "Living by Faith"). Haha.
The thought is just "woah". Somebody who had the ability to be so powerful chose to sacrifice herself in order to save mankind.
Heroes like Jean... do they still exist (in real life)? (Or rather... did people like that even exist [in real life]?)
Happy Freedom Day, fellow Filipinos. Somehow, this post aligned itself with this special occasion. Haha.
Let Me Not Forget
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 12:30 AM Labels: Bible, devotions, poems, Psalms Wednesday, June 10, 2009The phrase "Let me not forget" stuck to my head after reading Psalm 77 (because of the devotional I was reading - Women On The Journey), and so I ended up writing a poem with that phrase (and Psalm) in mind.
*****
When life has turned its back on me,
Surely I will struggle.
Soon enough I will call for help
Expecting that You will stretch out Your mighty hand.
But if ever You do not,
Let me not forget:
How I smelled the sweet fragrance of Your creation.
Let me not forget:
How I waded in the streams of Your grace.
Let me not forget:
How I felt the cool breeze of Your blessings.
Let me not forget:
How I basked under the warmth of Your great love.
Let me not forget,
Let me not forget.
P.S. "Surely I will struggle. Soon enough I will call for help" - Those 2 lines actually bother me because Christians do ask God for help in everything, right? But then again, before we cannot/ do not ask for help if we do not need help. So, those two lines remain as they are.
Cain
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 9:50 PM Labels: Bible, devotions, Genesis, grace, musings, poems Friday, June 5, 2009"10 The LORD said, "What have you done? Listen! Your brother's blood cries out to me from the ground. 11 Now you are under a curse and driven from the ground, which opened its mouth to receive your brother's blood from your hand. 12 When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you. You will be a restless wanderer on the earth."
13 Cain said to the LORD, "My punishment is more than I can bear. 14 Today you are driving me from the land, and I will be hidden from your presence; I will be a restless wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me."
15 But the LORD said to him, "Not so [e] ; if anyone kills Cain, he will suffer vengeance seven times over." Then the LORD put a mark on Cain so that no one who found him would kill him. 16 So Cain went out from the LORD's presence and lived in the land of Nod, [f] east of Eden." - Genesis 4:10-16
(So... what happened to my life so far? Finished well in summer classes for QUANMET, a.k.a. Probabilities and Statistics... currently undergoing driving lessons... finished the New Testament... went back to school for the 1st Trimester last May 25, only to have classes suspended from June 4 to 14 because of that AH1N1/ swine flu issue in DLSU. Life is so exciting, and no, that was not sarcasm.)
*****
Yahweh,
I did not give my best offering.
I have killed my own brother.
I even asked You if I was my brother's keeper.
So I was cursed. I was punished for what I have done.
My punishment is more than I could bear.
I will till the soil restlessly all the days of my life,
And I will wander aimlessly throughout the earth.
Also, I am banished from Your holy presence.
But still, Your mercy lingers over me.
You have promised to protect me from being murdered -
He who does it to me will suffer a vengeance of sevenfold.
It is indeed ironic
Because even though I am cursed, I am still blessed.
I may be hidden from Your presence,
But I can still see Your grace.
*****
P.S. This post is entitled Cain because of the poem.
P.S.S. Who will have ever thought that Cain the murderer == Cain under God's grace?
Standing on Grace
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 2:10 AM Labels: Bible, grace, insomnia, music, Paul, poems Sunday, May 3, 2009Since more than 50% of me is still active, I might as well use this time to write things down. Stuff I want to admit to myself in a *somewhat* physical form. I'm spiritually thirsty and weary these past few days, and quoting/paraphrasing from Paul, "I do what I do not want to do, yet what I want to do, I cannot do." Life is so tough sometimes. I was praying in my sleep yester-morning and asking God to cleanse me, forgive me, over and over again as if once is not enough. It's a horrible feeling - the kind when you say you're so sorry, but you cannot "feel" it. Ugh.
And then... a song by Caedmon's Call, entitled "Shifting Sand," comes into mind, and yet again, never failing, God proves to me that He is faithful, no matter how much slap He gets on the face because of me.
"My faith is like shifting sand,
Changed by every wave.
My faith is like shifting sand,
So I stand on grace." - Shifting Sand by Caedmon's Call
*****
I stand on grace
Because of what You've done
I stand on grace
Because of who You are
You are there when I am broken
You are there when I am filled
You are who You are
You never change
You are the God who saves
The One who authored the universe
The long awaited Prophecy
The Lion who is the Lamb
The Eternal Flame that continues to dwell inside my heart
Forever Faithful
Indescribable
Messiah of mine
Summer! (a.k.a. End of Term)
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 12:50 AM Labels: Caedmon's Call, Disneyland, HongKong, music, Ocean Park, Star City, vacation Sunday, April 19, 2009Of course, I got my music fix by listening through Caedmon's Call's songs from albums I managed to find here and there. (Their albums are so hard to find!) Here's one of my fave songs, from "In the Company of Angels: A Call to Worship."
HongKong bayside!
Cutest Disneyland entrance to date.
Oh... the unforgettable turkey leg in Disneyland. I thought we weren't eating it EVER again. (Translation: Hindi nakakalimutan ang pagkaka-umay sa turkey leg kahit 7 years ago na yun... way back in Anaheim.)
Why I love Papsy: Game na game siya!
Ocean Park's "Talking Tree," we meet again!!!
Me and the Panda mascots of Ocean Park... due to Nanay's demand. LOL.
Before there was Jigglypuff... There was Minnie Mouse. *squeals* Best Disneyland souvenirs ever. Mickey and Minnie glass menageries! (Next time, I want them bigger. Haha.)
More HongKong pics here.
So, yeah. Summer's finally here! (Now, I need to learn how to drive! Haha.)
Stress Release
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 11:50 PM Labels: art, Bible, Matthew, musings, Pokemon, school Sunday, March 29, 2009More so, I need fire in doing my academics even if it is sucking me like a vacuum. Excellence needs to be given to the One who deserves it.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” -Matthew 11:28-30
Yes, Lord, I need to hang on to your promises. As in.
Start of Term. Now.
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 11:35 PM Labels: Bible, birthday, devotions, Matthew, musings, school Saturday, March 21, 2009So you wish it was the start of term, so that everything goes in a relatively easy/slow pace.
I really don't mind not having a "summer" summer. I'm actually considering summer classes to lighten my load for the first term of the next school year. "Summer" summer makes me a bum. Eat, sleep, surf the net... It makes me so lazy.
In a different light of things...
The 12th of March was just as good as the 11th's. More of that next time (when I actually have the mood to type it down. This will definitely happen, BTW.).
There's this pretty poem from the devotional I'm reading (Walking On: Women On The Journey). It's actually quoted by the writer of the entry, Wawa B. Ponce:
I was regretting the past and fearing the future.
Suddenly my Lord was speaking: 'My name is I AM.'
He paused. I waited. He continued.
'When you live in the past, with its mistakes and regrets,
it is hard.
I am not there.
My name is not I was.
When you live in the future, with its problems and fears,
It is hard.
I am not there.
My name is not I will be.
When you live in this moment it is not hard. I am here.
My name is I AM.
-Helen Mallicoat
If one would ask me how I felt about the poem, I'll summarize it in two words: "Kinilig ako." Haha. It's a strange description, but I had good goosebumps when I finished reading the poem. I'm the kind of person who worries what would happen the day after next, so it is comforting to be assured that He is "I AM" and not "I will be" once in a while.
Another verse that came into mind when I read this poem was:
"Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34
Well... that's all for now. I still need to get up at 4 A.M. tomorrow. We need to go to Tagaytay, for some reason. Hehe.
My morning started by finding a card written by my Mommy and Papsy somewhere near the sofa I was sleeping in (We were all in the master's bedroom. I need aircon to survive the summer nights. Haha. Oh... they had two bouquets of flowers last night.). Of course, they had their little messages in it. I love cards!
Of course, there is the usual flood of text messages in my inbox/YM PMs, and the most memorable ones include:
"Happy birthday... I pray that may you not change but only impr0ve as a pers0n as you j0urney into adulth0od... P.s. 707th wedding anniversary nina r0me0 at juliet din 2day. Haha." -Kev BautistaComment: Wow! Today, thanks to Kev, I learned that a famous couple's actually celebrating their anniv!
"May tumatanda! ;p" -Anjo SantiagoComment: Grabe, Anjo. The best/most creative greeting of all. This made my day. Haha.
"Kamae! Happy brthday! Grbe tnx tlga kahapon ah..d pla aq kpasok s tred..sakt ng ulo q at d aq klakad ng dretso..." -Mikee CaragComment: Mikee! Sorry kung naimpatso ka kahapon sa block birthday treat ko kahapon (March 10). At least you enjoyed. LOL.
"...Happy birthday! ;D Palibre namaen o... I hope you had a very memorable un-legalhood and a blessed life as an adult, and I hope that you enjoy every moment of this very important day! Saan na ba?" -Jason "Burr" De JesusComment: Jason-burr, in his memorable way of speaking and kapal-face. Haha.
The ever elusive Worldness (a.k.a. Jerico Santos) greeted me! (Even if he was doing his lab report when he sent his PM... Okay... I'm really shallow when it comes to hard-to-reach/hard-to-find/extremely busy people greeting me.)
Special thanks goes to Tatay God for the wonderful 18 years I have spent here in this world. ^^
Countdown
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 9:20 PM Labels: birthday, Hosea, love, musings Friday, March 6, 2009I'm going to turn 18 next Wednesday, and I still wonder if I had already experienced all the stuff people need to go through before I reach that age where Filipinos (especially the girls) earn that "right of passage."
Oh well. Who really cares who went through what? At least not me. I'm actually talking nonsense to myself again. Hahaha. Anyway...
Last Sunday, I was reminded of Hosea, one of the Old Testament prophets. who was instructed by God to marry a prostitute. This was because of a talk by a modern-day prophet named Stacey Campbell in a church me and my father "visited." Actually, she just dropped off Hosea's name, and I, being the curious person I am, searched who Hosea was (because even I forgot his story).
I was reading the summary of the story on the net last Monday morning (because I cannot resist my curiosity), and this was what I found out:
Hosea was a remarkable man who really followed God, even if it hurts. He went on to marry Gomer, who God prophesied to become a prostitute, name children after names that were equated to "doom" because God told him so, went on to search and buy out Gomer at an auction when he found out that she was sold at the market after being disposed by her lover, and forgave Gomer.
I actually had some tears in my eyes when I finished reading his story. I never knew there was a love story in the Old Testament that's so moving it can make you cry. Not only did it show Hosea's unwavering faith on God, but it also showed how much God loves His people - how far He would go for His love.
So, that's Hosea.
It's Friday night again, and it will be Monday soon. Oh, how time flies so fast.
At least life's good. God's good.
Solitary Soul
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 3:10 PM Labels: Bible, CCC, Joshua, poems Thursday, February 26, 2009Poem inspired by Joshua 1:1-9
*****
I can hear the wind
Calling out my name
As i walk down this barren road
Filled with uncertainty
Why I am doing this
Is a big mystery
I have for so many times
thought of over and over again
Yet I still keep on walking
Unafraid
I'll keep following
This path
Where the wind blows
For my efforts will not be in vain
Soon
though I don't exactly know when
I'll be able to reach
That place
Where the sun always shines
Where the flowers never cease to bloom
Where the river always flows with life
I have faith I will
So I continue to walk
(Home)
Of Irritations and His Faithfulness
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 12:40 AM Labels: musings, poems, purpose Tuesday, February 24, 2009I'm going to say this sentence another time, just like I did for the rest of since-when-this irritation began, "Ang kati-kati!!!"
It distracts me so much that I want to cry because of it. But (and I can't believe I'm saying this) you know what's amazing about it? The red pigmentations it causes make a big heart-shaped mark across my chest. I don't even understand the reason why I'm saying this, but what I know is that God is continually teaching me how to see the good in the ugly and irritable, just as He is doing.
On another note, I was archiving all my blog posts a while ago (The oldest post dated back December 31, 2004), and as I was scanning through my posts, I saw a poem I wrote when I was 15 years old. (It seems like a long time ago.) I let a few people read it, because even I was amazed with what I wrote at that time. Also, this is such a memorable poem because this was the first I wrote dedicated to my Heavenly Father.
A Shimmer of Hope
I try to catch my breath
As my world starts to slowly fade away.
I search for a remedy to stop all of this;
My mind trying to find what went wrong.
But I can’t find the answer.
I am lost in oblivion,
Stuck in the limbo within the depths of my soul.
Why does everything seem so hard?
Why do I need to suffer
This bleakness and loneliness
That is slowly eating up
Every part of me?
I need to save what’s left of this place
Before it gets completely devoured by the darkness lurking stealthily;
Ruining my abode little by little.
But I failed.
“How will my world come to life again?”
This question I asked to myself.
I realized that I have ignored something;
A small glitter of light that was always watching over me.
Following me everywhere that I go.
I finally found a shimmer of hope;
Something that can turn my dark, broken world back into the beautiful place it once was.
This little light –
Why did I always ignore it
When in fact, it was the origin of my world.
It was always there beside me –
Constant, unchanging.
This tiny sparkle is the only thing
That can mend this shattered world of mine.
This light –
The one thing I used to nurture
Before my world became a marvelous dwelling.
It was what started it all:
It made all these majestic things that used to live in my paradise;
This world grew and grew,
Until it was so beautiful that I started to ignore this little light.
Slowly, I began to forget about its existence.
Because of this light, I had my world, my secret place,
Where I can lean on, take refuge.
“Why is it still there after all these times I tried ignoring it?”
No matter what I do, the light was always there.
Never foresaking me even though I left it away.
I started nurturing this light again.
My paradise started to come to life once more.
It grew and grew –
I was so delighted!
I can’t believe that this light would still do all these things for me
Despite being rejected for such a long time.
I will continue to nurture this light;
Having done a lot of amazing things for me.
I’ll never let it go;
I’ll not make those same mistakes I did in the past.
This light is what makes my world go round,
And I am willing to do everything for it;
To return the favor it gave me;
Incomparable to any other thing that I can ever give.
-Kamae; May 4, 2006
Based from my previous posts (2004-2008), I have definitely grown up, but this poem reminds me that no matter how much I mature (Oh... I'm almost 18!), there's that part of me that will continue yearning for Him. He has proven to me through my writings and ramblings that He is transforming me into who He wants me to be, and I'll be patiently waiting for the next thing He'll do in my life.
Love. Grace. Music.
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 2:10 PM Labels: Caedmon's Call, grace, love, music, musings Monday, February 23, 2009So, while I was lying in bed, waiting for sleep to fall on me, I kept praying and praying. Then, this morning, I just needed to listen to this song, and I feel a lot better now.
Tatay God, thank You for being the God of many chances. Thank You for choosing me, and being incredibly patient, because I still have a long way to go.
Last, but not the least, though it is an unusual thing to thank You for; Thank You for making me a music junkie , and using that part of me in lifting me up and reminding me of who You are.
*****
Left his seamless robe behind
Woke up in a stable crying
Lived and died and rose again
Savior for a guilty land
It's a story like a children's tune
And it's grown familiar as the moon
So now I ride my camel high
And I'm aiming for the needle's eye
I chased the wind, but I chased in vain
I chased the earth, but it would not sustain
[Chorus:]
There's only one who never fails
To beckon the morning light
There's only one who sets loose the gales
And ties the trees down tight
When all around my soul gives way
He is all my hope and stay
There's only one, only one Holy One
Lord, You are my Prince of Peace
But this war brings me to my knees
See there's a table You've prepared
And all my enemies are there
But where my Shepherd leads
Where else can I go
Who else fills my cup till it overflows
[Chorus]
There's only one who never fails
To beckon the morning light
There's only one who sets loose the gales
And ties the trees down tight
To the Solid Rock I fly
Though He bids me come and die
There's only one, only one Holy One
[Chorus]
Good Morning, God
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 7:45 AM Labels: grace, love, musings, poems, praise Sunday, February 15, 2009I got out of bed
Stood up
Then went to the bathroom
I placed myself in front of the sink
Started brushing my teeth
After the brushing was done
I gazed at the mirror in front of me
Then smiled
I saw all my imperfections
My ears
My chalk-like stained teeth
Even my zits which I dislike to see
But despite these things
I sing a song of joy
For yes
Even though I am imperfect
I am beautiful to You, my Lord
My Creator
My Savior
My Redeemer
And I praise You
Because despite my shortcomings
You are there to fill me up
And make me whole
Good morning, God
Belated Happy Valentine's Day
I Love You
Your Child,
Kamae
The Reluctant Lasallian
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 4:10 PM Labels: Bible, musings, Proverbs, purpose Saturday, February 14, 2009It still is a big mystery to me. I cannot believe I said during that Star Scholarship interview (a fully-waived tuition fee program during your whole stay in the school, plus other benefits, which I unfortunately was not accepted in) that I would study in La Salle even if I was not accepted in the scholarship program. I chose La Salle over other schools because of my course. Period. I cannot understand my reasoning even up till now.
There are still those times when that thought of shifting out to another school enters my brain, but my heart says otherwise. Even when there I times I dislike saying I am a Lasallian, I continue to be one, because God continues to whisper in my heart to be one.
I was once one of those normal sixth grade students who would settle for any high school in my area, but somehow, through His invisible hand, God led me to Philippine Science, which up till now, was an experience I still cannot fathom. Here He showed me , through graduating with honors, that I was capable of more than I thought I could be.
I will continue to trust Him, because even if I cannot understand where I am heading right now, He has his best intentions for me in His heart.
"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." - Proverbs 16:24
P.S. This experience inspired this poem of mine.
P.S.S. Happy Valentine's Day!!!
That Kind of Love
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 10:40 PM Labels: love, music, musings, Steven Curtis Chapman Friday, February 13, 2009Of all the kinds of love that exists in this world, the kind of love which really intrigues me is a parent's love, especially a father's love for his daughter. What is it that makes a father write a song about giving away his daughter in marriage, and why is it hard to let her go? If you've heard "Butterfly Kisses" by Bob Carlisle, you know what I'm talking about. Countless love songs make you happy or sad, but only few let you feel both emotions at the same time, and one of those few are songs written by a father for his daughter.
Maybe I'm thinking about this too much today since I'm the daughter of my father. (Wow. What a way to describe myself.) It must be really hard to raise someone up, spend all your time and effort on him/her, then let him/her go. It's an amazing love, to the point that it is kind of more than sacrificial.
I want to love like that one day. (Haha. Im saying this and I don't even have a love life!) It must be hard, but it sure is a rewarding kind of love.
*****
Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman
[Verse 1:]
She spins and she sways to whatever song plays,
Without a care in the world.
And I'm sitting here wearing the weight of the world on my shoulders.
It's been a long day and there's still work to do,
She's pulling at me saying "Dad I need you!
There's a ball at the castle and I've been invited and I need to practice my dancin'"
"Oh please, daddy, please!"
[Chorus:]
So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone.
[Verse 2:]
She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancin'
"Oh please, daddy , please!"
[Chorus]
[Verse 3:]
But she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowin' and tellin' us all they had planned
She says, "Dad the wedding's still six months away but I need to practice my dancin'
"Oh please, daddy , please!"
[Chorus]
Remembering You
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 10:50 PM Labels: music, Steven Curtis Chapman Thursday, February 5, 2009
Remembering You - Steven Curtis Chapman
I found You in the most unlikely way
But really it was You who found me
And I found myself in the gifts that You gave
You gave me so much and I
I wish You could stay
But I'll, I'll wait for the day
[Chorus:]
And I watch as the cold winter melts into spring
And I'll be remembering You
Oh and I'll smell the flowers and hear the birds sing
And I'll be remembering You, I'll be remembering You
From the first moment when I heard Your name
Something in my heart came alive
You showed me love and no words could explain
A love with the power to
Open the door
To a world I was made for
[Chorus]
The dark night, the hard fight
The long climb up the hill knowing the cost
The brave death, the last breathe
The silence whispering all hope was lost
The thunder, the wonder
A power that brings the dead back to life
I wish You could stay
But I'll wait for the day
And though You've gone away
You come back and
[Chorus]
And I'll watch as the sun fills a sky that was dark
And I'll be remembering You
And I'll think of the way that You fill up my heart
And I'll be remembering You
I'll be remembering You
I'll be remembering You
I'll be remembering You
I'll be remembering You
*****
It's actually part of the Chronicles of Narnia soundtrack, but with that aside, I was just left at awe with the narrator's (or in this case, the singer's) promise that he will always remember the good deeds and great love of his Savior. That is just so sweet.*
Pursuing Excellence
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 10:30 PM Labels: devotions, quotes Sunday, February 1, 2009I will pursue excellence, not to call attention to myself, but to honor the One who renews my strength." - Richelle Joson-Ligot, Walking On: The Best of Women on the Journey (2006)
This just made (or rather will make) my week. (Haha. I'm talking as if this week has already passed.) For sure, He is always there to guide me in everything that I do.*
"12 Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned— 13 for before the law was given, sin was in the world. But sin is not taken into account when there is no law. 14 Nevertheless, death reigned from the time of Adam to the time of Moses, even over those who did not sin by breaking a command, as did Adam, who was a pattern of the one to come.
15 But the gift is not like the trespass. For if the many died by the trespass of the one man, how much more did God's grace and the gift that came by the grace of the one man, Jesus Christ, overflow to the many! 16 Again, the gift of God is not like the result of the one man's sin: The judgment followed one sin and brought condemnation, but the gift followed many trespasses and brought justification. 17 For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God's abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ.
18 Consequently, just as the result of one trespass was condemnation for all men, so also the result of one act of righteousness was justification that brings life for all men. 19 For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.
20 The law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, 21 so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." - Romans 5:12-21
Like every other person, there are times when I feel out-of-tune with God's signals, and I begin to do things I know I would be better without. (These are the times when you really should NOT depend on FEELINGS, BUT rather on God and HIS WORD.) It's just awesome to know that He is always there to welcome you back into His arms.*
And lose the fire in what they do
Sometimes they try escaping
But end up being doomed
How and what, and why is it
That life's become an endless cycle
People living, people dying
What's they're purpose? They've no clue
Sometimes when even one knows where
They're going, they get tired
Lots of courage needed to exclaim
"I want to quit. Why'd I take part?"
Then when they reach the lowest of lows
Suddenly they're lifted up
Because there is immeasurable faith and power
Living inside their hearts
*****
Everybody gets tired. Sometimes, I just want the world to top for a moment so that I'll be able to "breathe some air." These are the times I appreciate God, because no matter how boring a day's routine may be, He is always there to lift me up (over and over again).*
Far Bigger
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 5:25 PM Labels: musings, poems, praise Friday, January 16, 2009Exactly where You're taking me
Will it be there?
Or maybe elsewhere?
Only You alone can foresee
One thing I know
I trust You with all my life and soul
Your dreams for me are far bigger than my own
As life's path continuously unfolds
I look back through my days
And I see Your faithful ways
I praise You for what You have done and will do
One thing I know
I trust You with all my life and soul
Your dreams for me are far bigger than my own
*****
There are those times when I wonder why He got me "here," and these are the times I am thankful that He is in control.*
P.S. Writing poems have soothing effects. Just like drawing. Haha.
Past all these things about me
And still You kept pursuing
My Lover, My Prince Charming
Seasons came, and seasons flew
Still, You were there, waiting
Then I started falling
Falling hopelessly in love with You
You made me want to follow
Wherever You may go
Made me want to live out
A life that is for You alone
Sometimes, though, I forget
How Your reckless love rescued me
Still You are there, waiting
For me to fall in love with You again
*****
I can' believe I wrote a poem before going to school! I don't know. I just woke up, then, when I was in the shower, I started singing that Hillsong song, "Better than the riches of this world/ Better than the sound of my friends' voices/ Better than the biggest dreams in my heart/ And that's just the start... Hold me now in Your arms and never let me go... I can't stop falling in love with You/ I'll never stop falling in love with You..." After that, I found myself writing a poem in my head, and this was how it came out.
In this poem, God is my pursuing Lover/Prince Charming. It's not (only) because He is magnificent and perfect in every way, but also, because of how He rescued me (and all the other "damsels-in-distress"... figuratively, of course). This was how I was able to praise Him before going to school, and yeah, it's in a pretty non-conventional way. *
The Day My iMac Froze
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 1:50 AM Labels: Bible, Fruit of the Spirit, Galatians, musingsI went to my computer and moved my mouse. Okay... not moving. I looked at the DSL connection timer (which shows at the upper right hand screen and appears in this format:
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." - Galatians 5:22-23
P.S. @Kev: These "connection moments" always happen... and they continue to amaze me.
Your Will Be Done
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 2:50 PM Labels: Bible, devotions, Job, John, Peter, retreats Tuesday, January 6, 200917 The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Feed my sheep. 18 I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go." 19 Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, "Follow me!"
20 Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, "Lord, who is going to betray you?") 21 When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?"
22 Jesus answered, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me." 23 Because of this, the rumor spread among the brothers that this disciple would not die. But Jesus did not say that he would not die; he only said, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you?" - John 21:17-23
This was the scenario wherein Jesus informed Peter of the kind of death he would go through to glorify God. (Peter later died by being crucified upside-down.) Surely, anyone who hears about the way they would die (especially if they have to go through a very painful one) would be terrified. The inspiring thing is, Peter submitted to God's will because he knew that God was in control.
This passage "knocked" on my heart again here in our Tagaytay retreat. Though the retreat is about prayer, God's will still remains. A prayer is only answered if it is in accordance with His will, and it must be mighty hard when things don't go about the way we planned them to be.
Another passage I was reminded about was when Job said, "God may kill me, but still I will trust Him. (CEV)" Job's faith in God is really amazing! Reading the stories of these people, and how they put their trust in God really challenges modern Christians (especially those in countries wherein sharing the Word does no have grave consequences). I want to be like these people too... Those who just tell God, "Lord, not my will, but Your will be done."*
Be Near Me
Posted by Kamae Iniguez at 3:13 PM Labels: Bethany Dillon, Bible, Hebrews, music Saturday, January 3, 2009I follow all the rules
Well, at least I'm trying
Hoping when my days are through
You'll be pleased
I've lived the longest days
Thinking my heart was so bad
Too scared to look in your face
Oh, if only I had
[Bridge:]
And is it alright
If I stay here all night
By the shoreline
[Chorus:]
I cannot believe you are angry or unjust
You've done nothing but have compassion on us
So be near me when I've given You up
Be near me
I'm just like everyone else
We are all hiding
Acting like I have a wealth
Of knowledge and peace
But all I've ever wanted
And what men have given their lives for
Is a God who understands my weaknesses
A God that I can love
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
I believe you are good and righteous
You've given me your reckless love
So be near, be near...
*****
God usually speaks to people through the Bible. But, He also uses other media like people, books, and in this case, music, referring to a passage in the Bible to speak to us. This song used to be one of the blah songs in my playlist until sometime this Christmas season.
I'm one of those people who always seek "self-improvement," and as a Christian, I HATE it when I SIN. It sucks. I feel real bad, and this song expresses my (and every Believers') plea for God to just be there for us even if we go astray (at times).
While I was thinking about this song awhile ago, Hebrews 13:5b flashed on my head - "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you."
These are the moments when His love (or at most, what we humans can comprehend) just leaves me dumbfounded.*